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“four!five!four!anythingyoulike。onlystopit,stopthepain!”
abruptlyhewassittingupwitho’brien’sarmroundhisshoulders。hehadperhapslostconsciousnessforafewseconds。thebondsthathadheldhisbodydownwereloosened。hefeltverycold,hewasshakinguncontrollably,histeethwerechattering,thetearswererollingdownhischeeks。foramomentheclungtoo’brienlikeababy,curiouslycomfortedbytheheavyarmroundhisshoulders。hehadthefeelingthato’brienwashisprotector,thatthepainwassomethingthatcamefromoutside,fromsomeothersource,andthatitwaso’brienwhowouldsavehimfromit。
“youareaslowlearner,winston,”saido’briengently。
“howcanihelpit?”heblubbered。“howcanihelpseeingwhatisinfrontofmyeyes?twoandtwoarefour。”
“sometimes,winston。sometimestheyarefive。sometimestheyarethree。sometimestheyareallofthematonce。youmusttryharder。itisnoteasytobecomesane。”
helaidwinstondownonthebed。thegripofhislimbstightenedagain,butthepainhadebbedawayandthetremblinghadstopped,leavinghimmerelyweakandcold。o’brienmotionedwithhisheadtothemaninthewhitecoat,whohadstoodimmobilethroughouttheproceedings。themaninthewhitecoatbentdownandlookedcloselyintowinston’seyes,felthispulse,laidanearagainsthischest,tappedhereandthere,thenhenoddedtoo’brien。
“again,”saido’brien。
thepainflowedintowinston’sbody。theneedlemustbeatseventy,seventy-five。hehadshuthiseyesthistime。heknewthatthefingerswerestillthere,andstillfour。allthatmatteredwassomehowtostayaliveuntilthespasmwasover。hehadceasedtonoticewhetherhewascryingoutornot。thepainlessenedagain。heopenedhiseyes。o’brienhaddrawnbackthelever。