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hismindgrewmoreactive。***hesatdownontheplankbed,hisbackagainstthewallandtheslateonhisknees,andsettoworkdeliberatelyatthetaskofre-educatinghimself。hehadcapitulated,thatwasagreed。inreality,ashesawnow,hehadbeenreadytocapitulatelongbeforehehadtakenthedecision。fromthemomentwhenhewasinsidetheministryoflove—andyes,evenduringthoseminuteswhenheandjuliahadstoodhelplesswhiletheironvoicefromthetelescreentoldthemwhattodo—hehadgraspedthefrivolity,theshallownessofhisattempttosethimselfupagainstthepoweroftheparty。heknewnowthatforsevenyearsthethoughtpolicehadwatchedhimlikeabeetleunderamagnifyingglass。therewasnophysicalact,nowordspokenaloud,thattheyhadnotnoticed,notrainofthoughtthattheyhadnotbeenabletoinfer。eventhespeckofwhitishdustonthecoverofhisdiarytheyhadcarefullyreplaced。theyhadplayedsound-trackstohim,shownhimphotographs。someofthemwerephotographsofjuliaandhimself。yes,even。。。hecouldnotfightagainstthepartyanylonger。besides,thepartywasintheright。itmustbeso;howcouldtheimmortal,collectivebrainbemistaken?bywhatexternalstandardcouldyoucheckitsjudgements?sanitywasstatistical。itwasmerelyaquestionoflearningtothinkastheythought。only!
thepencilfeltthickandawkwardinhisfingers。hebegantowritedownthethoughtsthatcameintohishead。hewrotefirstinlargeclumsycapitals: