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onedaytheywoulddecidetoshoothim。youcouldnottellwhenitwouldhappen,butafewsecondsbeforehanditshouldbepossibletoguess。itwasalwaysfrombehind,walkingdownacorridor。tensecondswouldbeenough。inthattimetheworldinsidehimcouldturnover。andthensuddenly,withoutaworduttered,withoutacheckinhisstep,withoutthechangingofalineinhisface—suddenlythecamouflagewouldbedownandbang!wouldgothebatteriesofhishatred。hatredwouldfillhimlikeanenormousroaringflame。andalmostinthesameinstantbang!wouldgothebullet,toolate,ortooearly。theywouldhaveblownhisbraintopiecesbeforetheycouldreclaimit。thehereticalthoughtwouldbeunpunished,unrepented,outoftheirreachforever。theywouldhaveblownaholeintheirownperfection。todiehatingthem,thatwasfreedom。heshuthiseyes。itwasmoredifficultthanacceptinganintellectualdiscipline。itwasaquestionofdegradinghimself,mutilatinghimself。hehadgottoplungeintothefilthiestoffilth。whatwasthemosthorrible,sickeningthingofall?hethoughtofbigbrother。theenormousface(becauseofconstantlyseeingitonpostershealwaysthoughtofitasbeingametrewide),withitsheavyblackmoustacheandtheeyesthatfollowedyoutoandfro,seemedtofloatintohismindofitsownaccord。whatwerehistruefeelingstowardsbigbrother?
therewasaheavytrampofbootsinthepassage。thesteeldoorswungopenwithaclang。o’brienwalkedintothecell。behindhimwerethewaxen-facedofficerandtheblack-uniformedguards。