Chapter 33

Chapter 33

WITHOUTTHEWALLEDCITY—THESLOPEOFTHEYEARS

Theimmediateresultofthiswasnothing.Resultsfromsuchthingsareusuallylongingrowing.Morningbringsachangeoffeeling.Theexistentconditioninvariablypleadsforitself.Itisonlyatoddmomentsthatwegetglimpsesofthemiseryofthings.Theheartunderstandswhenitisconfrontedwithcontrasts.Takethemawayandtheachesubsides.

Carriewenton,leadingmuchthissamelifeforsixmonthsthereafterormore.ShedidnotseeAmesanymore.HecalledonceupontheVances,butsheonlyheardaboutitthroughtheyoungwife.ThenhewentWest,andtherewasagradualsubsidenceofwhateverpersonalattractionhadexisted.Thementaleffectofthethinghadnotgone,however,andneverwouldentirely.Shehadanidealtocontrastmenby—particularlymenclosetoher.

Duringallthistime—aperiodrapidlyapproachingthreeyears-Hurstwoodhadbeenmovingalonginanevenpath.Therewasnoapparentslopedownward,anddistinctlynoneupward,sofarasthecasualobservermighthaveseen.Butpsychologicallytherewasachange,whichwasmarkedenoughtosuggestthefutureverydistinctlyindeed.ThiswasinthemerematterofthehalthiscareerhadreceivedwhenhedepartedfromChicago.Aman’sfortuneormaterialprogressisverymuchthesameashisbodilygrowth.Eitherheisgrowingstronger,healthier,wiser,asthe

youthapproachingmanhood,orheisgrowingweaker,older,lessincisivementally,asthemanapproachingoldage.Therearenootherstates.Frequentlythereisaperiodbetweenthecessationofyouthfulaccretionandthesettingin,inthecaseofthemiddle-agedman,ofthetendencytowarddecaywhenthetwoprocessesarealmostperfectlybalancedandthereislittledoingineitherdirection.Giventimeenough,however,thebalancebecomesasaggingtothegraveside.Slowlyatfirst,thenwithamodestmomentum,andatlastthegravewardprocessisinthefullswing.Soitisfrequentlywithman’sfortune.Ifitsprocessofaccretionisneverhalted,ifthebalancingstageisneverreached,therewillbenotoppling.Richmenare,frequently,inthesedays,savedfromthisdissolutionoftheirfortunebytheirabilitytohireyoungerbrains.Theseyoungerbrainslookupontheinterestsofthefortuneastheirown,andsosteadyanddirectitsprogress.Ifeachindividualwereleftabsolutelytothecareofhisowninterests,andweregiventimeenoughinwhichtogrowexceedinglyold,hisfortunewouldpassashisstrengthandwill.Heandhiswouldbeutterlydissolvedandscattereduntothefourwindsoftheheavens.

Butnowseewhereintheparallelchanges.Afortune,likeaman,isanorganismwhichdrawstoitselfothermindsandotherstrengththanthatinherentinthefounder.Besidetheyoungmindsdrawntoitbysalaries,itbecomesalliedwithyoungforces,whichmakeforitsexistenceevenwhenthestrengthandwisdomofthefounderarefading.Itmaybeconservedbythegrowthofacommunityorofastate.Itmaybeinvolvedinprovidingsomethingforwhichthereisagrowingdemand.Thisremovesitatoncebeyondthespecialcareofthefounder.Itneedsnotsomuchforesightnowasdirection.Themanwanes,theneedcontinuesorgrows,andthefortune,fallenintowhosehandsitmay,continues.Hence,somemennever

recognisetheturninginthetideoftheirabilities.Itisonlyinchancecases,whereafortuneorastateofsuccessiswrestedfromthem,thatthelackofabilitytodoastheydidformerlybecomesapparent.Hurstwood,setdownundernewconditions,wasinapositiontoseethathewasnolongeryoung.Ifhedidnot,itwasduewhollytothefactthathisstatewassowellbalancedthatanabsolutechangefortheworsedidnotshow.

Nottrainedtoreasonorintrospecthimself,hecouldnotanalyzethechangethatwastakingplaceinhismind,andhencehisbody,buthefeltthedepressionofit.Constantcomparisonbetweenhisoldstateandhisnewshowedabalancefortheworse,whichproducedaconstantstateofgloomor,atleast,depression.Now,ithasbeenshownexperimentallythataconstantlysubduedframeofmindproducescertainpoisonsintheblood,calledkatastates,justasvirtuousfeelingsofpleasureanddelightproducehelpfulchemicalscalledanastates.Thepoisonsgeneratedbyremorseinveighagainstthesystem,andeventuallyproducemarkedphysicaldeterioration.TotheseHurstwoodwassubject.

Inthecourseoftimeittolduponhistemper.Hiseyenolongerpossessedthatbuoyant,searchingshrewdnesswhichhadcharacterizeditinAdamsStreet.Hisstepwasnotassharpandfirm.Hewasgiventothinking,thinking,thinking.Thenewfriendshemadewerenotcelebrities.Theywereofacheaper,aslightlymoresensualandcruder,grade.HecouldnotpossiblytakethepleasureinthiscompanythathehadinthatofthosefinefrequentersoftheChicagoresort.Hewaslefttobrood.

Slowly,exceedinglyslowly,hisdesiretogreet,conciliate,andmakeathomethesepeoplewhovisitedtheWarrenStreetplacepassedfromhim.Moreandmoreslowlythesignificanceoftherealmhehadleftbegantobeclear.Itdidnotseemsowonderfultobein

itwhenhewasinit.Ithadseemedveryeasyforanyonetogetupthereandhaveampleraimentandmoneytospend,butnowthathewasoutofit,howfaroffitbecame.Hebegantoseeasoneseesacitywithawallaboutit.Menwerepostedatthegates.Youcouldnotgetin.Thoseinsidedidnotcaretocomeouttoseewhoyouwere.Theyweresomerryinsidetherethatallthoseoutsidewereforgotten,andhewasontheoutside.

Eachdayhecouldreadintheeveningpapersofthedoingswithinthiswalledcity.InthenoticesofpassengersforEuropehereadthenamesofeminentfrequentersofhisoldresort.Inthetheatricalcolumnappeared,fromtimetotime,announcementsofthelatestsuccessesofmenhehadknown.Heknewthattheywereattheiroldgayeties.Pullmanswerehaulingthemtoandfroabouttheland,papersweregreetingthemwithinterestingmentions,theelegantlobbiesofhotelsandtheglowofpolisheddining-roomswerekeepingthemclosewithinthewalledcity.Menwhomhehadknown,menwhomhehadtippedglasseswith—richmen,andhewasforgotten!WhowasMr.Wheeler.WhatwastheWarrenStreetresort.Bah!Ifonethinksthatsuchthoughtsdonotcometosocommonatypeofmind—thatsuchfeelingsrequireahighermentaldevelopment-Iwouldurgefortheirconsiderationthefactthatitisthehighermentaldevelopmentthatdoesawaywithsuchthoughts.Itisthehighermentaldevelopmentwhichinducesphilosophyandthatfortitudewhichrefusestodwelluponsuchthings—refusestobemadetosufferbytheirconsideration.Thecommontypeofmindisexceedinglykeenonallmatterswhichrelatetoitsphysicalwelfare—exceedinglykeen.Itistheunintellectualmiserwhosweatsbloodatthelossofahundreddollars.ItistheEpictetuswhosmileswhenthelastvestigeofphysicalwelfareisremoved.

Thetimecame,inthethirdyear,whenthisthinking

begantoproduceresultsintheWarrenStreetplace.Thetideofpatronagedroppedalittlebelowwhatithadbeenatitsbestsincehehadbeenthere.Thisirritatedandworriedhim.

TherecameanightwhenheconfessedtoCarriethatthebusinesswasnotdoingaswellthismonthasithadthemonthbefore.Thiswasinlieuofcertainsuggestionsshehadmadeconcerninglittlethingsshewantedtobuy.Shehadnotfailedtonoticethathedidnotseemtoconsultheraboutbuyingclothesforhimself.Forthefirsttime,itstruckherasaruse,orthathesaiditsothatshewouldnotthinkofaskingforthings.Herreplywasmildenough,butherthoughtswererebellious.Hewasnotlookingafterheratall.ShewasdependingforherenjoymentupontheVances.

Andnowthelatterannouncedthattheyweregoingaway.Itwasapproachingspring,andtheyweregoingNorth.

“Oh,yes,”saidMrs.VancetoCarrie,“wethinkwemightaswellgiveuptheflatandstoreourthings.We’llbegoneforthesummer,anditwouldbeauselessexpense.Ithinkwe’llsettlealittlefartherdowntownwhenwecomeback.”

Carrieheardthiswithgenuinesorrow.ShehadenjoyedMrs.Vance’scompanionshipsomuch.Therewasnooneelseinthehousewhomsheknew.Againshewouldbeallalone.

Hurstwood’sgloomovertheslightdecreaseinprofitsandthedepartureoftheVancescametogether.SoCarriehadlonelinessandthismoodofherhusbandtoenjoyatthesametime.Itwasagrievousthing.Shebecamerestlessanddissatisfied,notexactly,asshethought,withHurstwood,butwithlife.Whatwasit.Averydullroundindeed.Whatdidshehave.Nothingbutthisnarrow,littleflat.TheVancescouldtravel,theycoulddothethingsworthdoing,andhereshewas.Forwhatwasshemade,anyhow.Morethoughtfollowed,andthentears—tearsseemedjustified,andtheonlyreliefintheworld.

Foranotherperiodthisstatecontinued,thetwainleadingarathermonotonouslife,andthentherewasaslightchangefortheworse.Oneevening,Hurstwood,afterthinkingaboutawaytomodifyCarrie’sdesireforclothesandthegeneralstrainuponhisabilitytoprovide,said:

“Idon’tthinkI’lleverbeabletodomuchwithShaughnessy.”

“What’sthematter.”saidCarrie.

“Oh,he’saslow,greedy‘mick’!Hewon’tagreetoanythingtoimprovetheplace,anditwon’teverpaywithoutit.”

“Can’tyoumakehim.”saidCarrie.

“No;I’vetried.TheonlythingIcansee,ifIwanttoimprove,istogetholdofaplaceofmyown.”

“Whydon’tyou.”saidCarrie.

“Well,allIhaveistiedupintherejustnow.IfIhadachancetosaveawhileIthinkIcouldopenaplacethatwouldgiveusplentyofmoney.”

“Can’twesave.”saidCarrie.

“Wemighttryit,”hesuggested.“I’vebeenthinkingthatifwe’dtakeasmallerflatdowntownandliveeconomicallyforayear,Iwouldhaveenough,withwhatIhaveinvested,toopenagoodplace.Thenwecouldarrangetoliveasyouwantto.”

“Itwouldsuitmeallright,”saidCarrie,who,nevertheless,feltbadlytothinkithadcometothis.Talkofasmallerflatsoundedlikepoverty.

“TherearelotsofnicelittleflatsdownaroundSixthAvenue,belowFourteenthStreet.Wemightgetonedownthere.”

“I’lllookatthemifyousayso,”saidCarrie.

“IthinkIcouldbreakawayfromthisfellowinsideofayear,”saidHurstwood.“Nothingwillevercomeofthisarrangementasit’sgoingonnow.”

“I’lllookaround,”saidCarrie,observingthatthe

proposedchangeseemedtobeaseriousthingwithhim.

Theupshotofthiswasthatthechangewaseventuallyeffected;notwithoutgreatgloomonthepartofCarrie.Itreallyaffectedhermoreseriouslythananythingthathadyethappened.ShebegantolookuponHurstwoodwhollyasaman,andnotasaloverorhusband.Shefeltthoroughlyboundtohimasawife,andthatherlotwascastwithhis,whateveritmightbe;butshebegantoseethathewasgloomyandtaciturn,notayoung,strong,andbuoyantman.Helookedalittlebitoldtoherabouttheeyesandmouthnow,andtherewereotherthingswhichplacedhiminhistruerank,sofarasherestimationwasconcerned.Shebegantofeelthatshehadmadeamistake.Incidentally,shealsobegantorecallthefactthathehadpracticallyforcedhertofleewithhim.

ThenewflatwaslocatedinThirteenthStreet,ahalfblockwestofSixthAvenue,andcontainedonlyfourrooms.ThenewneighborhooddidnotappealtoCarrieasmuch.Therewerenotreeshere,nowestviewoftheriver.Thestreetwassolidlybuiltup.Thereweretwelvefamilieshere,respectableenough,butnothingliketheVances.Richerpeoplerequiredmorespace.

Beingleftaloneinthislittleplace,Carriedidwithoutagirl.Shemadeitcharmingenough,butcouldnotmakeitdelighther.Hurstwoodwasnotinwardlypleasedtothinkthattheyshouldhavetomodifytheirstate,buthearguedthathecoulddonothing.Hemustputthebestfaceonit,andletitgoatthat.

HetriedtoshowCarriethattherewasnocauseforfinancialalarm,butonlycongratulationoverthechancehewouldhaveattheendoftheyearbytakingherrathermorefrequentlytothetheatreandbyprovidingaliberaltable.Thiswasforthetimeonly.Hewasgettingintheframeofmindwherehewantedprincipallytobealoneandtobeallowedtothink.Thediseaseofbroodingwasbeginningtoclaimhimas

avictim.Onlythenewspapersandhisownthoughtswereworthwhile.Thedelightoflovehadagainslippedaway.Itwasacaseoflive,now,makingthebestyoucanoutofaverycommonplacestationinlife.

Theroaddownwardhasbutfewlandingsandlevelplaces.Theverystateofhismind,superinducedbyhiscondition,causedthebreachtowidenbetweenhimandhispartner.AtlastthatindividualbegantowishthatHurstwoodwasoutofit.Itsohappened,however,thatarealestatedealonthepartoftheownerofthelandarrangedthingsevenmoreeffectuallythanillwillcouldhaveschemed.

“Didyouseethat.”saidShaughnessyonemorningtoHurstwood,pointingtotherealestatecolumninacopyofthe“Herald,”whichheheld.

“No,whatisit.”saidHurstwood,lookingdowntheitemsofnews.

“Themanwhoownsthisgroundhassoldit.”

“Youdon’tsayso.”saidHurstwood.

Helooked,andtherewasthenotice.Mr.AugustVielehadyesterdayregisteredthetransferofthelot,25x75feet,atthecornerofWarrenandHudsonStreets,toJ.F.Slawsonforthesumof$57,000.

“Ourleaseexpireswhen.”askedHurstwood,thinking.“NextFebruary,isn’tit.”

“That’sright,”saidShaughnessy.

“Itdoesn’tsaywhatthenewman’sgoingtodowithit,”remarkedHurstwood,lookingbacktothepaper.

“We’llhear,Iguess,soonenough,”saidShaughnessy.

Sureenough,itdiddevelop.Mr.Slawsonownedthepropertyadjoining,andwasgoingtoputupamodernofficebuilding.Thepresentonewastobetorndown.Itwouldtakeprobablyayearandahalftocompletetheotherone.

Allthesethingsdevelopedbydegrees,andHurstwoodbegantoponderoverwhatwouldbecomeofthesaloon.Onedayhespokeaboutittohispartner.

“Doyouthinkitwouldbeworthwhiletoopenupsomewhereelseintheneighborhood.”

“Whatwouldbetheuse.”saidShaughnessy.“Wecouldn’tgetanothercorneraroundhere.”

“Itwouldn’tpayanywhereelse,doyouthink.”

“Iwouldn’ttryit,”saidtheother.TheapproachingchangenowtookonamostseriousaspecttoHurstwood.Dissolutionmeantthelossofhisthousanddollars,andhecouldnotsaveanotherthousandinthetime.HeunderstoodthatShaughnessywasmerelytiredofthearrangement,andwouldprobablyleasethenewcorner,whencompleted,alone.Hebegantoworryaboutthenecessityofanewconnectionandtoseeimpendingseriousfinancialstraitsunlesssomethingturnedup.ThislefthiminnomoodtoenjoyhisflatorCarrie,andconsequentlythedepressioninvadedthatquarter.

Meanwhile,hetooksuchtimeashecouldtolookabout,butopportunitieswerenotnumerous.More,hehadnotthesameimpressivepersonalitywhichhehadwhenhefirstcametoNewYork.Badthoughtshadputashadeintohiseyeswhichdidnotimpressothersfavorably.Neitherhadhethirteenhundreddollarsinhandtotalkwith.Aboutamonthlater,findingthathehadnotmadeanyprogress,ShaughnessyreporteddefinitelythatSlawsonwouldnotextendthelease.

“Iguessthisthing’sgottocometoanend,”hesaid,affectinganairofconcern.

“Well,ifithas,ithas,”answeredHurstwood,grimly.Hewouldnotgivetheotherakeytohisopinions,whatevertheywere.Heshouldnothavethesatisfaction.

AdayortwolaterhesawthathemustsaysomethingtoCarrie.

“Youknow,”hesaid,“IthinkI’mgoingtogettheworstofmydealdownthere.”

“Howisthat.”askedCarrieinastonishment.

“Well,themanwhoownsthegroundhassoldit.

andthenewownerwon’treleaseittous.Thebusinessmaycometoanend.”

“Can’tyoustartsomewhereelse.”

“Theredoesn’tseemtobeanyplace.Shaughnessydoesn’twantto.”

“Doyoulosewhatyouputin.”

“Yes,”saidHurstwood,whosefacewasastudy.

“Oh,isn’tthattoobad.”saidCarrie.

“It’satrick,”saidHurstwood.“That’sall.They’llstartanotherplacethereallright.”

Carrielookedathim,andgatheredfromhiswholedemeanorwhatitmeant.Itwasserious,veryserious.

“Doyouthinkyoucangetsomethingelse.”sheventured,timidly.

Hurstwoodthoughtawhile.Itwasallupwiththebluffaboutmoneyandinvestment.Shecouldseenowthathewas“broke.”

“Idon’tknow,”hesaidsolemnly;“Icantry.”

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