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“youhavethoughtsometimes,”saido’brien,“thatmyface—thefaceofamemberoftheinnerparty—looksoldandworn。whatdoyouthinkofyourownface?”
heseizedwinston’sshoulderandspunhimroundsothathewasfacinghim。
“lookattheconditionyouarein!”hesaid。“lookatthisfilthygrimealloveryourbody。lookatthedirtbetweenyourtoes。lookatthatdisgustingrunningsoreonyourleg。doyouknowthatyoustinklikeagoat?probablyyouhaveceasedtonoticeit。lookatyouremaciation。doyousee?icanmakemythumbandforefingermeetroundyourbicep。icouldsnapyournecklikeacarrot。doyouknowthatyouhavelosttwenty-fivekilogramssinceyouhavebeeninourhands?evenyourhairiscomingoutinhandfuls。look!”hepluckedatwinston’sheadandbroughtawayatuftofhair。“openyourmouth。nine,ten,eleventeethleft。howmanyhadyouwhenyoucametous?andthefewyouhaveleftaredroppingoutofyourhead。lookhere!”
heseizedoneofwinston’sremainingfrontteethbetweenhispowerfulthumbandforefinger。atwingeofpainshotthroughwinston’sjaw。o’brienhadwrenchedtheloosetoothoutbytheroots。hetosseditacrossthecell。
“youarerottingaway,”hesaid;“youarefallingtopieces。whatareyou?abagoffilth。nowturnaroundandlookintothatmirroragain。doyouseethatthingfacingyou?thatisthelastman。ifyouarehuman,thatishumanity。nowputyourclothesonagain。”
winstonbegantodresshimselfwithslowstiffmovements。untilnowhehadnotseemedtonoticehowthinandweakhewas。onlyonethoughtstirredinhismind:thathemusthavebeeninthisplacelongerthanhehadimagined。thensuddenlyashefixedthemiserableragsroundhimselfafeelingofpityforhisruinedbodyovercamehim。beforeheknewwhathewasdoinghehadcollapsedontoasmallstoolthatstoodbesidethebedandburstintotears。hewasawareofhisugliness,hisgracelessness,abundleofbonesinfilthyunderclothessittingweepingintheharshwhitelight:buthecouldnotstophimself。o’brienlaidahandonhisshoulder,almostkindly。